Struggles...

This week has been nothing but a huge struggle! I haven't really had the energy to give it my all at the Fort during a WOD, and I feel like when I make my meals, I am just eating to eat and make my ratios.

I really need to plan the next week out better, make more time for myself, and get organized and give myself the nutrition I need. The weather is getting a little nicer and I want to spend some time outside with the kids instead of slaving in the house all day.

I haven't lost ANY weight this week yet, and I was feeling so great with my 11.5lbs loss last week! BUMMER! I think that has me a little bummed too. I try not to "look" at the scale like so many people are telling me, but honestly, how many of those people have been at over 300lbs for more than 4 years of their life, struggling to get ahold of it, and just waiting for the breakthrough in energy to come their way. I hate trying to justify it this way, but only a hand few of people can really relate. Although I do love the motivation that those who have never been in that position try to give me. The scale is just 1 tool, that when it stays idle for any certain period of time, I feel I have left myself down again, especially when I am giving TONS of effort.

So anyway, just 2 mroe days left in week 2, and on to week 3 we will be! I am struggling more with my emotional motivation, and energy than I am with craving certain types of food. I think I am totally over the food battle. Now it is a battle of the mind. Telling myself I can battle through the workouts....and push myself past my limits....